I know this chapter is out superly-duperly quickly after the last, but I really wanted to write it instead of waiting until next week to do so.
My little prize possession. Rosen, my son, was only a year old and he was so full of life.
There were times when he was a little cranky, until he got his bottle that is.
Being a single parent was hard. But that's life. Life hardly is ever easy.
Only when Rosen was asleep is when I had time for my self. I was always with him, and that wasn't a problem, but I still need my alone time occasionally.
A lot of times I sat down and think. Think about what life would be like if Heiden was still alive. I knew I had to move on though, Heidan would want that...
When morning arrived I made breakfast, even if it was mac and cheese, I was too happy to care. I found myself humming, and that was very odd for me. Maybe something good was going to happen today?
The day was beautiful, (like always) and I took Rosen for a stroll around the city. The trip would probably take all day, due to how big it was, but we were both energized and ready to go.
It was until we arrived at the beach, when I felt my day slowly tumbling down.
This was the beach Heiden proposed to me at. I soon got a call from the doctors, for Rosen's yearly check up, and tried not to sound a little.... strained.
I sat him down and just stared at the water. All the old feelings welled up inside me and I started to cry. I was quickly embarresed and wiped the tears off my face.
"Hey, Rosen. This is where your daddy took mommy, all the time! Do you want to come here more often?" I asked Rosen using my baby voice.
Rosen started to giggle and get excited, I took that as a yes. He couldn't quite talk yet, though he could understand what I was saying.
I started to trudge him along the sand, his feet barely picking themselves up when I felt eyes bore into my back.
I quickly picked up Rosen, it would hardly be a lie if I couldn't tell when something big was going to happen, and I wanted Rosen to be safe, just in case it was dangerous. I turned and saw him... What was his name...? Carlson? Yeah, him. The one night stand. Crap.
"You, uhhh, you have a baby?" He stuttered staring at the baby in my arms.
"Umm, yeah. But don't worry. Its not yours..." I played with the red hair sat on Rosen's head, to emphasis the color.
"I figured that out by now. Hey, little baby...." His words trailed off waiting for me to give Rosen's name.
"Rosen, his name is Rosen."
"Funny, those eyes, and that hair color. They look all too familiar...." He trailed off once again, he quickly got a sad expression, but covered it up with a forced smile.
"You wouldn't happen to have relations with a man named Heiden... Have you?"
"Depends on what you mean by relations. And how do you know Heidan?"
"Well, the Heidan I know, had his mothers hair and his fathers eyes.... And seems your son inherited some of his features..."
"Seems to be like my Heidan. He was murdered around a year and 10 months ago though. How did you know him?
"Murdered? But... He can't be.... I know I haven't spoken to him in 2 years, but... How could my half-brother be murdered....?" Tears instantly formed into his eyes...
"Did you umm say half-brother...." I was quickly cut off and knocked out of air when Carlson squeezed me into a hug. He started balling by this point. I couldn't help but cry with him.
We soon sat down, putting on fake smiles... We were watching the sky, telling each other wonderful stories about Heidan.
"Look, look at that star Rose... It looks like your eyes."
My breath caught, Heidan had said those same exact words to me the night of the proposal.
"Are you okay Rose, you are being awfully quiet...."
I nodded and smiled to show him I was fine, this felt wrong, but I really needed the comfort right now...
When we arrived back home, I sat on the couch and watched Carlson play with Rosen. Once again, it felt wrong. That should have been Heidan.
A couple months have passed since then and me and Carlson have grown increasingly close. And we have started to date. He moved in to help with finances with Rosen and to help me raise him. I was so grateful that Carlson would take us under his wing.
And of course like most couples... Well I'll let you finish that thought.
It wasn't until one Sunday afternoon that I heard footsteps enter the house...
"I see your doing fine, Rose."
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Dun... Dun.. DUN! This is why I was so excited to write it, because HEIDAN IS BACK BABY!
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